What hold's me on?

Another day started out positively. Me on mails speaking to my team,mails up and down.Only issue telephone conversations.People still don't undersatnd me.quite a struggle. My boss does, he takes efforts, but my sub-ordinates don't want to. They just don't want to exert. If you tell them something they just feel that you are preaching. In UK experience is all that counts. if you have experience they think you are great , otherwise you are Zero. Anyways i used to get bogged down,but not any longer. i have learned to relax, not take much stress.Let it be.
There are lots of plusses-3 months minimum ahead of plans. What we would be doing in dec they do it in sep. Thats great learning.

I have another problem. Never failed in life. So am now scared of failure, but when i ask why-dont get answers. What worse will happen? I need to get over this whole issue of adapting my behaviour to suit other. I tell this to myself everyday but then by end of day am back to usual.

I hope i will get over this.

Why I am here?

Over Past 12 months having taken a break from my job in India, i have been more and more thinking of what are my objectives. What do i want from my life ? I came to UK to support my wife with her education , but same time i would also admit i thought of getting some global experience. After having tough time getting a decent break depite my HSMP, good Qualification, friends trying to help, i got my first break in November. Managing People as well as Balance sheet responsibilty as was said by my current Boss. How exciting i thought? Down two months in the job with people advising me how to go about managing people in different culture, Don't do this , Don't do that , i guess its becoming a little bit of pain. The fact that onus of adjusting is only on you as an alien in this land and not on other people around.You need to make all the efoorts but others will not as this is their land.Well thats true, but at same time i thought Bristish were open minded and fair , but i guess all are like that.There are some who are like that but they are rare.I guess i need top compromise on myself and flex myself to suit them.

I am not happy about it so i guess i am lost in this Big World.